It's early Friday morning.This is usually when I crash & burn. I did great Thurday. I hit the gym. I wasn't too hungry. I could have eaten more fruit today but oh well. I got off work early . I needed some late night me time. I love watching silly chick flicks alone while my family sleeps peacefully upstairs.
The weekend is when everyone has little parties and get togethers. There is always food & drinks.I know Weight Watchers allows for this kinda stuff but I'm thinking it's week 1...I might pass. If I do hang out with friends I will just make sure I eat before I go and I just won't drink. I will have to sqeeze in gym time but I have my man keeping me on track. I love him dearly...he is my rock!!! I am lucky that I have such a great little family. The are my main reason for wanting to change my life. I need to be able to keep up with my Kiddos. I want to stop all the dieting and body issues bs. I don't want my daughter to see it. She has already made comments to the effect of " Momma can't have that cause she's on a diet" and " I can't eat that cause I don't wanna get fat ". It breaks my heart! She is a perfectly normal healthy little girl and I don't want my baggage to become her baggage. I'm trying to do the best I can and I pray everyday that I don't ruin my son & daughter.
I know I am stronger than I give myself credit for. But somewhere along the way I lost my strength. I let myself get so beaten down that I lost my confidence. I used to be fearless! I was unstoppable!!! I want that back so frickin' bad! The Man told me that when we met that is what he loved about me. I was absolutely kick ass! I took nothing from no one and I never backed down. The stresses of this last year has turned me into a kicked puppy. I am trying to return to myself. Trying very hard. I know I can do this. I have to do this!
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